Your New Awareness Gives You Choice
In the dream of the second attention, you get to rewrite the judge's book of laws. It is a time to clean the old distorting garbage out of your channels of perception. It is a time to un-learn everything you think you know. On a planet that is hurtling through space, coming from somewhere unknown and going somewhere unknowable, there really is nothing true and no knowledge worth suffering for.
As you break your human form of rigid beliefs and opinions, you will be able to re-domesticate yourself into a new dream — this time by choice. This is the mastery of transformation of the Toltecs. Here the warrior takes action to create a dream of heaven on Earth, based on love and acceptance. The rigid structures of the old dream are replaced by a fluid movement through life with all of its changes and challenges.
The Choice: Love or Fear
The choice is simple: love or fear. It is not necessarily easy, but it is simple. In any moment, do you choose love or fear? They are two tracks of life, and from what you have read so far, it is probably clear where each leads. Fear is the energy the parasite uses to keep you small, safe, and out of trouble. Love, the simple act of accepting what is, opens your heart and frees you to enjoy life, be creative, and play.
The Toltecs realize that even though the choice is simple, and even obvious to most people, it is not necessarily easy. The parasite has been in control for a long time, and is not willing to relinquish its authority in your life.
The parasite knows that the strategies it has developed to keep the shameful truth of who you are hidden from others are the only thing that keeps you from being banished from human company and dying impoverished and alone. The parasite wastes most of your daily human energy allotment on its lies, big dramas, and keeping you hidden. Perhaps it is time to find out how big you can really be!
The Choice: Happiness or Suffering
How happy can you be? How happy do you have permission to be? The parasites of the world like to bond through suffering and commiserating. They say things at their pity party like “Oh, dear, the worst thing happened to me yesterday….” Another parasite replies, “Oh, that's nothing. You should hear what somebody did to me! They told me I was….” It is as though the parasites are trying to one-up each other in a contest about how unhappy they can make their humans — by seeing the world as hurtful, unsupportive, or filled with danger and betrayal.
The Toltec warrior realizes that the parasites inside and outside are afraid of too much happiness. It makes the humans too big, which is dangerous in the dream of the parasite. The parasite says maybe you can be happy sometimes, but you have to suffer to balance it, or you will not recognize the happiness or be grateful for it. The warrior knows this is another lie. You can be happy all of the time. On the love track of life, there is only happiness. On the fear track, there is suffering. The warrior is dedicated to risking being happy all the time, and being as big as he can be.
Take a moment to think about ways that you stop yourself from being too happy. What are the agreements you've made about happiness? What do you feel when you think about being really happy? Does your parasite commiserate with other parasites about how bad it is? How does that serve you? Make some notes for yourself.