Manipulating Your Perceptions
The parasite is a master at creating fear, even if there is nothing real to be afraid of. Since it has control of the human mind, it can do just about anything it wants with it. The parasite controls the assemblage point. It allows its human only a narrow perspective, one point of view. The result is fear.
If you read a newspaper and it makes you afraid, know that the parasite has channeled the information there through an assemblage point it knows will create fear. It might use your political ideals, your fear of violence, or your identification with the environment. If you are sitting in your car at a red light, and a fearful daydream arises in your mind, that is the parasite creating its food. If you experience tightness in your chest and within moments imagine yourself in an ambulance racing to the hospital, that is the parasite creating its food.
The Parasite Lives in the Past and Future
An apprentice had been married for fifteen years and was never happy. Her husband was sweet to her before the wedding but began criticizing and verbally abusing her shortly after they were married. Her parasite told her to keep trying to make it okay. It convinced her that it must be her fault that he changed, and if she could figure out what had caused him to turn against her, she could fix it. The parasite kept insisting that if she would just keep trying, the future would be better.
Take a moment, put down this book, and see if you can become aware of this parasite dream in your body. Does the parasite have a message for you? Anything you want to say to it? How does your body feel in the presence of the parasite? Make some notes about the conversation.
No matter what she did, no matter how hard she tried, the apprentice's husband continued to be abusive. When she was exhausted from trying, and so hurt it did not matter anymore, she filed for divorce and moved out. Immediately her parasite began blaming her for being weak and selfish. It told her she should have tried harder, and that she would be lucky if anyone ever loved her again. After all, the parasite reminded her, she wasn't getting any younger. Her parasite also told her that she should have left her husband much sooner, and that she was weak and stupid for not leaving him.
When the apprentice began dating a nice man a year after her divorce, the parasite was right there to remind her about the past. It told her over and over that she could not trust her attraction, because look what happened the first time. It made her doubt herself, and she was afraid to commit herself too deeply to her new relationship. In time, the man gave up trying to overcome her fear, and moved on in his life without her. Of course, her parasite used the man's leaving as evidence to create more fear about the future, and more self-judgment about her lack of worth.
The Parasite Uses Other People
A man asks a woman to go out with him on Saturday night, and she replies, “I'm sorry, I can't. I'm busy that night.” It may be very true that she is busy, and she might actually hope that he asks her about the next night. If the man's parasite is on the job, what he will imagine he hears her say is “Go out with you? You must be kidding! No thank you!” His parasite can then pull out its list of reasons why nobody would want to go out with him, and why he should never even bother to ask.
The parasite is a ventriloquist, and is able to make its human say things the human would never say on his own. One of the great tricks of the parasite is to ask someone what she thinks of its human. “Do you think I'm fat?” is probably the greatest trick of all. “Do you think this looks good on me?” Remember that the parasite is asking another parasite the questions, and the other parasite will make its human afraid to give the wrong answer and be rejected. The fear nearly guarantees that the “wrong” answer will be given, and more rejection and fear will follow. You can almost see the parasites smiling.