Breaking the Old Agreements
To reclaim her personal power, which was lost during domestication, the warrior must break all the agreements she made that cause her to reject herself and judge creation. She also must expose and deny the lies she learned to tell herself about lack, need, scarcity, and even death. Every agreement and belief that is held by fear in her personal dream limits her power of creation and her freedom to be herself.
How do I start to reclaim my personal power when I am worn out from working all day, spending time with my kids, and cooking and cleaning?
One of the roles of a teacher is to support you with his encouragement, accountability, and unconditional love. You don't have to do the work alone — ask for help.
The Toltec tools for transforming the limiting agreements have been described in earlier chapters. The important thing to recognize here is that it takes power to reclaim power. Someone who always lives in the victim dream has no power available to stalk and transform agreements. All of her personal power is being used by her parasite to defend her victim dream and deny her pain. It is often beneficial for a new warrior to “borrow” the personal power of a teacher or master to support her as she begins her healing journey.
Every agreement the warrior breaks, and every belief she changes from fear to self-affirming love, recovers power from the parasite for her to use in her quest for freedom. As she accumulates more power and gains more awareness, her stalking becomes stronger, and she is able to break even more old agreements. The warrior's most difficult journey was the one away from her truth as life. The return to the truth of that source is welcomed and facilitated by life.
Nothing Is Personal
All humans are dreaming a dream that is unique to themselves. The light they are distorting and projecting into their minds is creating the only universe of its kind. The awareness of this phenomenon is the biggest gift of the Toltec wisdom. If you understand that everyone is dreaming, you will know that their “dream you” has nothing to do with you. You are not who they are dreaming you are. There is a different you being dreamed in every unique universe, including your own!
The most powerful agreement in the mitote of the old dream says, “What other people say or believe about you is the truth.” Nearly all new humans are taught to accept this agreement, and then they live their lives worrying about, and trying to control, what others think of them. They teach the agreement to the new humans, and reinforce it in each other. It is the most powerful agreement and the biggest lie in the mitote.
If you rely on what other people think of you to determine your value, your life will be lived on an emotional roller coaster. You will go up when you are liked, down when you are judged. Don't believe them, either way. It does not matter what people think about you, because they are dreaming you, not seeing you.
This agreement that makes everything personal is one of the foundations of the dream of the planet. The warrior knows she must break its hold on her mind before she can be free. She consistently brings her awareness to her perfection as a manifestation of life, exactly as she is. She remembers that all the humans are dreaming, and when they speak of her, they are describing their dream image of her, not her. She knows they are not talking about the reality of what she is.
The warrior knows she is dreaming, also, and does not believe herself or the universe she dreams. She does not take anything personally, because she absolutely knows the universe is not personal. She is free to be in the world, but not attached to it. The warrior can keep her heart open, knowing she has no identity to defend and no beliefs to justify.
You Are the Source of Love
The dream of the planet depends on all the humans believing that they must have the approval of other humans in order to be okay. The fear that permeates the old dream is the fear of rejection and expulsion from the family, workplace, tribe, religious culture, friendships, and love relationships. The old dream teaches that God and Santa Claus are both watching you, making a list, checking it twice, and will punish you if you're not nice.
The Toltec warrior knows she came into this world as love, and she claims her right to love and be loved just the way she is. She breaks the old agreement that she must prove herself worthy of love, and claims her truth as the source of love and life. The warrior, empowered by her love, offers unconditional love to the victim child, judge, rebel, and all the wounded mask-wearing parts of her inner world. In the light of her love, every part of her finds new joy and peace.